My job bores me to death
My job as a public servant is sad to die. My relationships with my colleagues are complicated, they are not sincere and are rather hypocritical and mean. My only desire is to stay with my husband and children, as if I knew I was going to die tomorrow. Can you help me to see more clearly? Florence, age 31
You have several problems, the accumulation of which causes real suffering. The first is simply that of your motivation: apparently, your work has a nutritional value, but if you had the choice, you would stay with your family. So today there is no interest or pleasure for you in the very fact of working.
The second is that the environment of this job does not suit you at all. On one hand, because of the nature of your function, which you describe as dull and sad, on the other hand, because of the relationships with your colleagues, which do not correspond to what you would like. Know all the same Florence, that one dislikes very often when looking for affective and friendly relations in the professional environment. Such relationships are very rare, except perhaps with one or two individuals, and some hypocrisy is commonplace: perhaps it is the prerogative of an adult professional attitude to learn to live with it. and to live with, looking for relationship development elsewhere than in work.
Finally, there is a little music in the backdrop of your message, between your work "sad to die" and your family that you do not want to leave "as if you were going to die tomorrow" which makes me think that you could possibly talk with a therapist about a relationship that may be in your mind between working and scary things. A substantive work that should not prevent you from thinking seriously about the question of what could be the job, the job, the environment that would allow you to go to the office every morning with a big smile.